I was inspired to write this as I come out of this COVID retreat. So many friends are feeling similarly, the stirring of spring coinciding with deep longings for communion. Enjoy.
Spring Stirring
Eros. Young love.
Old lovers.
The emanation body,
The bliss body,
Awakening, coming out to play.
Seeking another, as a reflection point.
As a reminder of what you’re here for...
Connection, union, dissolution.
A sense of the body
In space and relation
With each other
With all of Nature.
Alive!
What is it that you want?
An end to the restlessness.
Comparing, jealous, and empty inside.
Not enough, never enough.
Imagine complete absorption in the arms
and eyes of the beloved.
Consumed.
Sweet nothings until you are
Sweet Nothing.
The end of longing comes
With the complete fulfillment
Of one embrace.
Eternal.
Nowhere to go, no one to be.
No more healing to be done.
What is it that you want?
To be beyond fear.
A cessation of the anxiousness and the anger.
Always timid and acting with trepidation.
Fight, flight, freeze...
To be free of them all.
Imagine a ferocity of being.
Fangs and eyes wild.
You make yourself into a monster so
No demon can shake you.
Lose yourself in wild abandon.
Both fearless and fearsome,
But with a heart of compassion.
Clean anger. Searing.
Cuts to the chase.
Where does ferocity meet bliss?
Fucking reality.
Two lovers meet after lifetimes.
The lovemaking has intensity, as if they might devour each other.
And yet they stop
Just short of eating each other up.
And in that pause, that restraint,
there is a love beyond desire.
Bliss comes in heaving breaths,
All hesitation is forgotten.
Action and non-action are irrelevant.
The intimacy is with Life itself.
As we emerge from these cocoons
Melting the wax casing of winter,
And the isolation of this era.
Let us know what medicine we need,
And what medicine we are to others.
Let us meet each other anew.
Remembering who we are, but forgetting all the rest.
Like lions, regal.
Like lambs, gentle.
Holding life like a bird in the hand.
Wishing for others what we most want ourselves.
Finding the love we need to see us through.
And coming home to each other in the silent caverns of the heart.
May 2021
